Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see...

I tossed a coin...

I know it sounds trivial but I decided to let fate be decided by a coin. Heads means ‘STAY’, Tail means ‘GO’.

First Toss- Tail

Second Toss- Tail

Third Toss- Tail

I gave up! How can I let a coin decide for me? It’s ridiculous and insane.

I should have the courage to make my own decisions and be strong enough to face up to it. I realised that I have been reading too much into things and as a result this has led me to become paranoid and unsure about my whole university application.

I have to admit despite all the upbeat and optimism about studying overseas, there is still a constant struggle of uncertainties that is holding me back. I am someone who thinks a lot and I am a very practical person. I would take my time to weigh the pro and cons and reassess the whole situation again and again before I make a decision. That is why I always have difficulty in making decisions.

The last few weeks I have been doing so much thinking I am on the brink of suffering from a nervous breakdown. But before I go insane or anything, I sense the Lord questioning me on my faith. The whole basis of my religion is based on the concept of faith. Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see- Hebrews 11:1

God is a faithful God, what he promises he fulfils. I have to say that not one thing God has promised has failed. I have failed at times to appropriate what God has for me, but He has never failed.

It is this very fact that should cause us to press on with Him. He is faithful and willing, in fact eagerly desirous, to see us go on to the end in victory. So why not appropriate all things that God has provided for us?
God wants us to grow in the knowledge of Christ and appropriate by faith all that has been provided for us.

After a merry–go-round, I finally realised that the issue all along is not about serving on the worship team, it’s not about whether this is the right time to go abroad but the real issue lies in my faith. Whether am I willing to take the leap of faith and believe that the Lord will provide me every step of the way? I know there will be times when there would be bumps on the journey and I might have a couple of nasty falls but that would be the time when my God will catch me and help me get on my feet again and continue this journey.

Let me now than go forth in faith and let God determine the rest.

No more questions asked, no more doubts, no more deliberation.

Guys I am going to Liverpool….