Just as I thought Liverpool is it.....
I have been really positive about Liverpool so far in fact I picked up my disruption form today and was about to fill it up when the Lord dropped a bombshell on me .
Remember the music audition I was telling you guys about, ok I got in. I remembered telling the Lord that if I get into the worship team, I would stay to worship him till its time to move on for my further studies. I guess I was really presumptuous and assumed that I flunked the whole audition and got all positive over the UK offer and scholarship.
I told the Lord to show me his signs and wonders, I asked him to help me open my eyes, my ears and my heart to listen to his will for my life and whether Liverpool is the right law school for me. It’s really funny when you struggle with decisions, should I stay and honour him in the worship team for the moment or should I just get on with life and go UK for my law degree? I need to seek the Lord now as I am really unsure of his plan. Everything is such a blur. I was so sure this morning that Liverpool is the final answer, but now I sense the Lord shifting the gear and directing me in another direction.
The whole scholarship and Liverpool offer has been a gift from the Lord but am I willing to give these gifts back to him? Do I treasure the gifts more than the giver? Am I willing to give up my Isaac for the Lord?
I just told my parents and they did not take too well to it. There were a lot of shouting and disagreements. My mum told me that the door is so clearly open to me why can’t I just open my eyes and see it? She even threatens to revoke her sponsorship and I might just jolly well blow everything. I have a strong feeling that I may just end up at NTU mass communications if my parents refuse to sponsor me anymore. Lord why must you put me through so much hurdles and difficulties? Is this really from you? Or am I playing tricks on myself? I can always take the easy way out and go Liverpool, but is this what the Lord really wants?
I don’t want to go to UK without the Lord, but yet it so hard to make such painful decisions of giving up the prestigious scholarship and the whole concept of studying law in UK for this academic term?
I really need to know from God and I pray that he will speak to me over the next few days on the right decision to make. I want to pray with confidence knowing that the Lord will be there for me no matter what and I ask that he will show me the way…
Remember the music audition I was telling you guys about, ok I got in. I remembered telling the Lord that if I get into the worship team, I would stay to worship him till its time to move on for my further studies. I guess I was really presumptuous and assumed that I flunked the whole audition and got all positive over the UK offer and scholarship.
I told the Lord to show me his signs and wonders, I asked him to help me open my eyes, my ears and my heart to listen to his will for my life and whether Liverpool is the right law school for me. It’s really funny when you struggle with decisions, should I stay and honour him in the worship team for the moment or should I just get on with life and go UK for my law degree? I need to seek the Lord now as I am really unsure of his plan. Everything is such a blur. I was so sure this morning that Liverpool is the final answer, but now I sense the Lord shifting the gear and directing me in another direction.
The whole scholarship and Liverpool offer has been a gift from the Lord but am I willing to give these gifts back to him? Do I treasure the gifts more than the giver? Am I willing to give up my Isaac for the Lord?
I just told my parents and they did not take too well to it. There were a lot of shouting and disagreements. My mum told me that the door is so clearly open to me why can’t I just open my eyes and see it? She even threatens to revoke her sponsorship and I might just jolly well blow everything. I have a strong feeling that I may just end up at NTU mass communications if my parents refuse to sponsor me anymore. Lord why must you put me through so much hurdles and difficulties? Is this really from you? Or am I playing tricks on myself? I can always take the easy way out and go Liverpool, but is this what the Lord really wants?
I don’t want to go to UK without the Lord, but yet it so hard to make such painful decisions of giving up the prestigious scholarship and the whole concept of studying law in UK for this academic term?
I really need to know from God and I pray that he will speak to me over the next few days on the right decision to make. I want to pray with confidence knowing that the Lord will be there for me no matter what and I ask that he will show me the way…
posted by theflyisneverdead at 6/20/2005 09:59:00 PM
1 Comments:
wow.. jus passing thru.. God bless you to hear clearly from Him.. and to have understanding. it's a blessing too that both doors are open.. rest assured as you seek, He will certainly direct your paths.. it's a promise.. :)
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