Year in review-2005
YEAR IN REVIEW-2005.
I recycled this survey from an anonymous blogger and I am going to recycle this at the start of every year to reflect on the previous year. Hell yea, I am still adapting to 2006 but I just know it would be a great year ahead. I just know!
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
I survived army; against all odds. There were people betting on my tragic exit from the army some even wrote about this on their blog but thank god it’s finally over. I was a lifeguard. Ok on this point, I sold out to my personal beliefs of not having any ‘himbotic’ jobs but I have no choice because I knew I would be much worse off in other vocations so I have to settle. I attended the NUS law interview and written test, to utter dismay I was slaughtered. I applied for an overseas scholarship and was rewarded with the award; I chose not to take it up. I worked; I was involved in the COMEX fair promoting Intel computer and components; an unlikely candidate for an unsuitable job, oh well at least I can now tell the difference between a hardware and a software. I was depressed and realized how emotionally dysfunctional I am; I lost extreme amount of weight and I tried soft drugs for the first time, this is something that I am not proud of, it was half curiosity and half inner problems, but I am off it and attending counseling of sorts. Life is worth more than that cheap shit.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No resolutions for me! I swore off this juvenile shit a couple of years ago.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, my cousin (*Limin*) from my maternal family tree just gave birth to a baby girl 2 days before Christmas. I know this baby would be so gifted firstly because she is born into a royal family tree and secondly, she would inherit her mum’s looks and her Dad’s intelligence. That lucky babe!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
The death of the comedy series F.R.I.E.N.D.S. These people have such hearts that I am sure gonna miss them.
5. What countries did you visit?
Bangkok, Thailand. Went for a shop and relax trip with my cousin Lettice and her friend See Wen. Its like repeat telecast, I am such a frequent there nothing interesting ever happens. Except that I ate at this really classy jap restaurant at MBK but still its Bangkok. nothing works well there. Of cos of late, JB. hate that place, hate the jam, hate the people, and don’t think I will ever go back there.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
The usual: A HAPPENING social life with really cool coffee friends to chill out with, a nice bluff and solid six ABS body; a new sports series Ferrari or a lexus, more clothes from FCUK, CK JEANS, A/X EXCHNAGE, GUESS, BRITISH INDIA, ZARA , to graduate at the top of my class with as many HDs as possible and of course a torrid love affair with the ladies, make that a couple of love affairs down under.
Seriously now. To be honest, I just ask for one thing and that is to be close to God and be happy in whatever I do. I am a simple person, really. I ain’t that complicated.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I am not really a date’s person but I guess the only date that comes to my mind is 21 Dec 2005, my ORD day because that marks the end of an era for me. Ok I am exaggerating but that date marks the beginning of something new and exciting and the death of a horrible dream.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I'd say getting into mass communications @ NTU and all but I kind of did that in 2004. So, I suppose getting into the double degree law program at the University of Sydney, receiving a law scholarship from the University of Liverpool and yea before I forget my driving license. Being all grown up and driving my dad’s car all over and of course my first car accident. Hey that can also qualify for my biggest achievement being all calm and collected and taking things into control and of course burning a huge hole in my pocket. My blog, my pride.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Falling asleep - literally and metaphorically - in my lifeguard vocation in the army; not giving a damn in the army and anything else associated with it; and failing to harbour any sort of remote interest in my lifeguard career. Whatever.
Another perceived ‘biggest failure’ would have to be missing out for NUS law and misplaced misconceptions on the apparent discrimination of my poly background as a reason. I really dreamt of doing my law degree locally and saving my parents a huge load of money but I guess I am over it and obviously God has much more blessings in store for me, so I really cant give a shit to these failures cause ‘the best is yet to be’.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Depression for over a year and that explains my loss of weight and lack of appetite and lethargic. Emotional distress, reaching the peak of the battle with the inner struggles of my desires and my religious beliefs, and of course the infamous ‘finger’ accident that occurred when I was transporting something heavy in camp.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Too many to remember. Well as of late, I purchased this really cool street edition of the ‘Levi’s sneakers and yea my $180 plus red tab slim fit Levis Jeans. Best stuff I received this Christmas, an IPOD from my cousin and a zara sweater from my best friend!
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My family and my close friends.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
People whom I wished I have never met. And obviously my ex-supervisor but its all good now. I wish him and all these people well.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Random stuff, I can’t exactly remember all but half of it went to my driving license and the other half to mainly Christmas gifts and clothes for myself. Zara, Gio, U2, Muji, FCUK, CK and a quarter to my regular coffee sessions all around town. There is really too many to remember and of course my baby, the laptop.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
1. My soon to be life as a law student and my overseas studies, the life that is ahead of me;
2. My F.R.I.E.N.D.S. DVD collection season 1 -10, amazing shit;
3. Driving for the first time under the intense scrutiny of my dad;
4. Promoting INTEL’s computers @ the Comex fair;
5. Trip to Bangkok with my cousin was all excited about flying and stuff, I love to fly it’s just a feeling;
6. Christmas shopping, yea I always get all perked up during this season because its time I get to shop like crazy for my loved ones and obviously for myself ;
7. Getting that letter from NUS Law for that interview and written test;
8. The NUS Law interview;
9. That sentosa trip organized by my unit, I mean this is the first time ever that I am excited about something army based;
10.FCBC shifting to the Singapore Expo, love my new church and love the new culture and environment only regret is not staying to witness more of God’s amazing transformation for the church;
11. Being selected to join the worship team and having being able to serve God and of course attending a music vocal lesson to sharpen my vocals;
12. The creation of my blog, this is my baby where I express all my views and thoughts;
13. The whole death penalty saga of which I am a strong advocate for the abolishment of the death penalty;
14. Attending my good friend’s Diah’s wedding; and
15. That's about it.
16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
Because of You by Kelly Clarkson.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
Too close to call! Comparatively happier, although I wouldn't choose to use that word to describe my state of mind. Instead, I'd say:
Anticipation, for not knowing what's to come in Sydney;
Anticipation again, for the fact that I must do well and come back within the top 30% of my cohort;
Anticipation again again, for knowing that I cant screw up the future I ever wanted for myself; and
Anticipation again again again, for my bros wedding later this year.
So much to look forward to, I can’t help but feel hopeful.
ii. thinner or fatter?
Thinner, duh? With all the depression and stuff im sure I lost more than 10 kg for the last year. And you know its true when u attend a poly friends wedding and everyone cant recognize you and comments on how thin you became.
iii. richer or poorer?
I hate to answer this, but technically poorer. I mean no input and lots of output, do the maths and you get the logical reasoning.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Reading the Bible and Praying. If I have done more of this, less shit would happen to me. I mean of course faith without actions amounts to nothing.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being all anal and uptight and insecure with people around me. Secondly, looking down on non law students and perceiving one as being much better than others can ever be to justify my self worthiness. We are all guilty of this at least I’m being honest. Thirdly, not being able to fully comprehend the reason for my depression and sinking into further self hate and loathe and using objects and people as an outlet to release upon and not being able to live a truthful life as a result.
Lastly, insulting innocent bystanders and people around me. And of cos discussing about other people to other people.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With my family and close friends at a Christmas party @ my house.
22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
More like, did I fall in love EVER? And the answer is no. I am not in a state to be attached because I am unavailable emotionally yet. There are still many unresolved issues in my life that has yet to be solved so I am absolutely not ready.
23. How many one night stands?
I prefer not to answer this question.
24. What was your favourite TV programme?
F.R.I.E.N.D.S and it has got to be OPRAH prime time.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I won’t use the word hate as its too misleading and too strong a word. Instead I would rephrase and say there are hell yeah a couple of people whom I have a change of impression on.
26. What was the best book you read?
I used to think Da Vinci’s Code. But after all it’s trashy language and content, I have to say A million little pieces by James Frey as introduced on Oprah Prime Time. A classic journey of an ex druggie to a free man.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Nothing. Not a music person and seldom download music but my all time favorite is Hillsong, Australia and I kinda like Kelly Clarkson from American Idol really nice voice.
28. What did you want and get?
I wanted to drive and I did. Yeah, that's about it.
I wanted to go to law school overseas and thank God for such amazing parents who are willing to finance me along the way.
Well, I wanted to stop feeling miserable and insecure and I am working towards that.
29. What did you want and not get?
The NUS law thing. And that’s basically it.
Why are these questions so repetitive? People are not stupid they get my point…
30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Sadly, I don't remember watching any movies.
Well, okay I did remember watching Star Wars and Harry Potter, the 40 year old virgin and as it is in heaven.
If I have to choose from such limited selections, hands up to ‘as it is in heaven’. Brilliant plot and language. And loved the theme about teaching music to unfortunate kids in a village and humbling of oneself to remember the humility of life.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I don’t remember celebrating my birthday this year. Wait a minute, oh my parents brought me out for a meal and my brother gave me a gift. I hate being reminded that I am a year older. I hate aging.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
The fact that I finally am able to open up to parents about my condition and to my pastor and am undergoing rehab to straighten out my messed up life. It’s like a quarter life crisis already, but I know that I would be stronger and wiser and more mature in the coming year.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
I was in the army so this question doesn’t apply to me. Ok even if I were to be an ordinary citizen, the same question will not apply to me because fashion is a personal thing. I believe that clothes do not make a man rather its what is inside him that is of substance. But in this coming year, I am hoping of a more laid back and aussie fashion thing. Say board shorts and t shirts and sneakers.
34. What kept you sane?
God
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Noone.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The death penalty. I'll leave it at that.
37. Who did you miss?
Surprisingly my ex colleague Joel. but that’s like a tiny whiny little bit like 0.025 % due to the fact that I have worked with him for like over a year so there’s like a little emotional attachment. I guess in the coming year I would miss a lot of my family and friends including Aldric (best bud). And sheng .
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm.haha there are like a couple of people but none of them will beat Eugene Hoon from my army camp. Nice guy and amazing spirit and chemistry.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
Just hang on. No matter how tough a situation can ever be, just hang on and you will survive and NEVER give up.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
????????
I recycled this survey from an anonymous blogger and I am going to recycle this at the start of every year to reflect on the previous year. Hell yea, I am still adapting to 2006 but I just know it would be a great year ahead. I just know!
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
I survived army; against all odds. There were people betting on my tragic exit from the army some even wrote about this on their blog but thank god it’s finally over. I was a lifeguard. Ok on this point, I sold out to my personal beliefs of not having any ‘himbotic’ jobs but I have no choice because I knew I would be much worse off in other vocations so I have to settle. I attended the NUS law interview and written test, to utter dismay I was slaughtered. I applied for an overseas scholarship and was rewarded with the award; I chose not to take it up. I worked; I was involved in the COMEX fair promoting Intel computer and components; an unlikely candidate for an unsuitable job, oh well at least I can now tell the difference between a hardware and a software. I was depressed and realized how emotionally dysfunctional I am; I lost extreme amount of weight and I tried soft drugs for the first time, this is something that I am not proud of, it was half curiosity and half inner problems, but I am off it and attending counseling of sorts. Life is worth more than that cheap shit.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No resolutions for me! I swore off this juvenile shit a couple of years ago.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes, my cousin (*Limin*) from my maternal family tree just gave birth to a baby girl 2 days before Christmas. I know this baby would be so gifted firstly because she is born into a royal family tree and secondly, she would inherit her mum’s looks and her Dad’s intelligence. That lucky babe!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
The death of the comedy series F.R.I.E.N.D.S. These people have such hearts that I am sure gonna miss them.
5. What countries did you visit?
Bangkok, Thailand. Went for a shop and relax trip with my cousin Lettice and her friend See Wen. Its like repeat telecast, I am such a frequent there nothing interesting ever happens. Except that I ate at this really classy jap restaurant at MBK but still its Bangkok. nothing works well there. Of cos of late, JB. hate that place, hate the jam, hate the people, and don’t think I will ever go back there.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
The usual: A HAPPENING social life with really cool coffee friends to chill out with, a nice bluff and solid six ABS body; a new sports series Ferrari or a lexus, more clothes from FCUK, CK JEANS, A/X EXCHNAGE, GUESS, BRITISH INDIA, ZARA , to graduate at the top of my class with as many HDs as possible and of course a torrid love affair with the ladies, make that a couple of love affairs down under.
Seriously now. To be honest, I just ask for one thing and that is to be close to God and be happy in whatever I do. I am a simple person, really. I ain’t that complicated.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I am not really a date’s person but I guess the only date that comes to my mind is 21 Dec 2005, my ORD day because that marks the end of an era for me. Ok I am exaggerating but that date marks the beginning of something new and exciting and the death of a horrible dream.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I'd say getting into mass communications @ NTU and all but I kind of did that in 2004. So, I suppose getting into the double degree law program at the University of Sydney, receiving a law scholarship from the University of Liverpool and yea before I forget my driving license. Being all grown up and driving my dad’s car all over and of course my first car accident. Hey that can also qualify for my biggest achievement being all calm and collected and taking things into control and of course burning a huge hole in my pocket. My blog, my pride.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Falling asleep - literally and metaphorically - in my lifeguard vocation in the army; not giving a damn in the army and anything else associated with it; and failing to harbour any sort of remote interest in my lifeguard career. Whatever.
Another perceived ‘biggest failure’ would have to be missing out for NUS law and misplaced misconceptions on the apparent discrimination of my poly background as a reason. I really dreamt of doing my law degree locally and saving my parents a huge load of money but I guess I am over it and obviously God has much more blessings in store for me, so I really cant give a shit to these failures cause ‘the best is yet to be’.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Depression for over a year and that explains my loss of weight and lack of appetite and lethargic. Emotional distress, reaching the peak of the battle with the inner struggles of my desires and my religious beliefs, and of course the infamous ‘finger’ accident that occurred when I was transporting something heavy in camp.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Too many to remember. Well as of late, I purchased this really cool street edition of the ‘Levi’s sneakers and yea my $180 plus red tab slim fit Levis Jeans. Best stuff I received this Christmas, an IPOD from my cousin and a zara sweater from my best friend!
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My family and my close friends.
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
People whom I wished I have never met. And obviously my ex-supervisor but its all good now. I wish him and all these people well.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Random stuff, I can’t exactly remember all but half of it went to my driving license and the other half to mainly Christmas gifts and clothes for myself. Zara, Gio, U2, Muji, FCUK, CK and a quarter to my regular coffee sessions all around town. There is really too many to remember and of course my baby, the laptop.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
1. My soon to be life as a law student and my overseas studies, the life that is ahead of me;
2. My F.R.I.E.N.D.S. DVD collection season 1 -10, amazing shit;
3. Driving for the first time under the intense scrutiny of my dad;
4. Promoting INTEL’s computers @ the Comex fair;
5. Trip to Bangkok with my cousin was all excited about flying and stuff, I love to fly it’s just a feeling;
6. Christmas shopping, yea I always get all perked up during this season because its time I get to shop like crazy for my loved ones and obviously for myself ;
7. Getting that letter from NUS Law for that interview and written test;
8. The NUS Law interview;
9. That sentosa trip organized by my unit, I mean this is the first time ever that I am excited about something army based;
10.FCBC shifting to the Singapore Expo, love my new church and love the new culture and environment only regret is not staying to witness more of God’s amazing transformation for the church;
11. Being selected to join the worship team and having being able to serve God and of course attending a music vocal lesson to sharpen my vocals;
12. The creation of my blog, this is my baby where I express all my views and thoughts;
13. The whole death penalty saga of which I am a strong advocate for the abolishment of the death penalty;
14. Attending my good friend’s Diah’s wedding; and
15. That's about it.
16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
Because of You by Kelly Clarkson.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
Too close to call! Comparatively happier, although I wouldn't choose to use that word to describe my state of mind. Instead, I'd say:
Anticipation, for not knowing what's to come in Sydney;
Anticipation again, for the fact that I must do well and come back within the top 30% of my cohort;
Anticipation again again, for knowing that I cant screw up the future I ever wanted for myself; and
Anticipation again again again, for my bros wedding later this year.
So much to look forward to, I can’t help but feel hopeful.
ii. thinner or fatter?
Thinner, duh? With all the depression and stuff im sure I lost more than 10 kg for the last year. And you know its true when u attend a poly friends wedding and everyone cant recognize you and comments on how thin you became.
iii. richer or poorer?
I hate to answer this, but technically poorer. I mean no input and lots of output, do the maths and you get the logical reasoning.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Reading the Bible and Praying. If I have done more of this, less shit would happen to me. I mean of course faith without actions amounts to nothing.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being all anal and uptight and insecure with people around me. Secondly, looking down on non law students and perceiving one as being much better than others can ever be to justify my self worthiness. We are all guilty of this at least I’m being honest. Thirdly, not being able to fully comprehend the reason for my depression and sinking into further self hate and loathe and using objects and people as an outlet to release upon and not being able to live a truthful life as a result.
Lastly, insulting innocent bystanders and people around me. And of cos discussing about other people to other people.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With my family and close friends at a Christmas party @ my house.
22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
More like, did I fall in love EVER? And the answer is no. I am not in a state to be attached because I am unavailable emotionally yet. There are still many unresolved issues in my life that has yet to be solved so I am absolutely not ready.
23. How many one night stands?
I prefer not to answer this question.
24. What was your favourite TV programme?
F.R.I.E.N.D.S and it has got to be OPRAH prime time.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I won’t use the word hate as its too misleading and too strong a word. Instead I would rephrase and say there are hell yeah a couple of people whom I have a change of impression on.
26. What was the best book you read?
I used to think Da Vinci’s Code. But after all it’s trashy language and content, I have to say A million little pieces by James Frey as introduced on Oprah Prime Time. A classic journey of an ex druggie to a free man.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Nothing. Not a music person and seldom download music but my all time favorite is Hillsong, Australia and I kinda like Kelly Clarkson from American Idol really nice voice.
28. What did you want and get?
I wanted to drive and I did. Yeah, that's about it.
I wanted to go to law school overseas and thank God for such amazing parents who are willing to finance me along the way.
Well, I wanted to stop feeling miserable and insecure and I am working towards that.
29. What did you want and not get?
The NUS law thing. And that’s basically it.
Why are these questions so repetitive? People are not stupid they get my point…
30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Sadly, I don't remember watching any movies.
Well, okay I did remember watching Star Wars and Harry Potter, the 40 year old virgin and as it is in heaven.
If I have to choose from such limited selections, hands up to ‘as it is in heaven’. Brilliant plot and language. And loved the theme about teaching music to unfortunate kids in a village and humbling of oneself to remember the humility of life.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I don’t remember celebrating my birthday this year. Wait a minute, oh my parents brought me out for a meal and my brother gave me a gift. I hate being reminded that I am a year older. I hate aging.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
The fact that I finally am able to open up to parents about my condition and to my pastor and am undergoing rehab to straighten out my messed up life. It’s like a quarter life crisis already, but I know that I would be stronger and wiser and more mature in the coming year.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
I was in the army so this question doesn’t apply to me. Ok even if I were to be an ordinary citizen, the same question will not apply to me because fashion is a personal thing. I believe that clothes do not make a man rather its what is inside him that is of substance. But in this coming year, I am hoping of a more laid back and aussie fashion thing. Say board shorts and t shirts and sneakers.
34. What kept you sane?
God
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Noone.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The death penalty. I'll leave it at that.
37. Who did you miss?
Surprisingly my ex colleague Joel. but that’s like a tiny whiny little bit like 0.025 % due to the fact that I have worked with him for like over a year so there’s like a little emotional attachment. I guess in the coming year I would miss a lot of my family and friends including Aldric (best bud). And sheng .
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Hmm.haha there are like a couple of people but none of them will beat Eugene Hoon from my army camp. Nice guy and amazing spirit and chemistry.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
Just hang on. No matter how tough a situation can ever be, just hang on and you will survive and NEVER give up.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
????????
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