back to the roots...

I was just browsing some of my friends blogs and I came across one of my INFS's group members blog entry and I am really encouraged by this brother’s faith and trust in God. Felix accepted Christ like a couple of days ago but he talks with so much wisdom and understanding, I felt like I have learnt something from him.

Let me quote:

It's time to thank God.
Maybe there were a lot of dark sides in the past, a lot of wrong directions, but you have led me to the right place finally. It was not an easy path to Christianity. At first, I had a lot of anxiety and depression which aren't light symptoms. Somehow I made it through, and found Jesus, then I discovered the path to happiness. Of course, there are still struggles in life, but I am just really happy that I realize God really cares about me, and He has arranged everything for me since birth. I start to appreciate what He did in contribution of my daily life, whether I'm happy, whether I'm upset, whether I'm excited, or whatever.
The Holy Spirit shall carry me through, until the day when He wants me back.

This quote is so inspiring and it reminded me of my own life when I used to suffer from depression and bitterness towards people around me, this quote sums up all my sentiments and gratefulness towards God from rescuing me and alleviating all my fears and uncertainty. So beautiful… I am inspired and empowered.

are you my neighbour?

I am getting so frustrated with the whole concept of duty of care. Do I owe a duty of care to the people around me? Is the concept of duty of care more of a moral obligation rather than that of a law? How do we define the people we owe a duty of care to? Say A is my friend, I witnessed A getting beaten up by a group of gangsters, I do not intervened for I am still in a state of shock and secondly, I knew that I could not defeat the group of gangsters so for the sake of my own safety I did not do anything to help prevent and stop the fight. Do I owe a duty of care to A? Logically speaking I owe him no duty at all because it wasn’t me who caused the physical harm to A and I couldn’t have done anything to prevent and stop the fight for the simple reason that I am outnumbered.

However if we have established that A is my friend, and having invested years of building our precious relationship, isn’t a duty of care already established by the mere fact that he is not a stranger anymore but someone we know and we should have a moral obligation to help him despite all odds? Why isn’t moral consideration considered as part of duty of care?

We can argue that law should be objective an minus all moral principles, we should derive and interpret the law strictly based on the facts of the case and the legal principles involved, but I disagree for the reason that law is derived from morals in the first place and we should always return to our roots and place moral obligations on top of law and shape the law according to our morals. However with that being said, the downside of this argument is that different people have different morals how do we come up with a clear set of morals to apply to each individual? Like how can we merge the morals of a murderer and that of a reasonable and honest citizen? That is a question that still remains to be solved but I always agree that morals could be derived from religion and that the principle of conscience. Conscience is something that some may say is arguable to a certain degree, but there is still a universal set of conscience that has been established in history to apply to our society.

Some may use the ‘reasonable mans’ test to determine whether or not B owns a duty of care to A. Who the hell is the reasonable man? Does such a moron even exist? If not, why are normal people held to the standard of an imaginary person? Whatever happened to "the law should not require the impossible"? The reasonable mans test goes to suffice that the law is all about technicalities and established principles which stood the test of time. Which brings me to a conclusion, we should scrap altogether the test of the reasonable man for the above said reason for a reasonable man is not easily distinguished and therefore shouldn’t we instead use the test of the ‘average man’ where we peg the standards to a more identifiable and distinguishable set of criteria?

Hypo technically speaking, if you were A, how would you have felt if you came to the knowledge that your friend left you in the pit to fend for yourself? I would certainly be pissed but could my feelings of abandonment be justified as a logical conclusion of the breach of duty of care? Think about it….I shall leave it as that.

Btw happy birthday Ashley! And I am begging you to introduce someone to me …. Hehe….please?Z???

i hate foundations ....

Right, I have a law presentation tomorrow on judicial selection and judicial independence, 12 more hours to go and yet I am still surfing the net, chatting with friends on msn, planning on ways and means to get back at some people, I am seriously screwed.

Law presentations aren’t exactly a fun thing to do. I mean having the whole class dissect and scrutinize your speech is kind of intimidating and having the law professor staring at you and constantly scratching his head either in pure adoration or utter disbelief, I have to suffer in agony from the prospect of being totally embarrassed in class when he starts asking me really in-depth questions tomorrow during the Q &A. I can’t wait for law seminar to past tomorrow, the impending on slaughter is driving me nuts. I have never been so tensed over a presentation. Lets the count the number of ways I can die over and over and over again.

Some people have asked me from time to time again, why am I not attached? They look at me in total and utter disbelief and some have even went on to form a quick judgment that I may belong to the ‘dark’ side and that I will step out from the closet pretty soon. I hate conversations about the ‘dark side;, its like something that I don’t want to know or even hear about. Hey guys, leave me alone.

I am sick and tired about society’s norm that a guy my age should start getting into some serious relationships or at least have a girlfriend to justify my loneliness and etc. I am fine with being single. I rather not be attached than to be a complete hypocrite and be influenced by others to get attached for the sake of being attached. Ashley even offered to match make me to someone, leave me alone!!!! Which to avoid the topic in the future, I will plan to match make some people together. I am good at deviating from the topic.

Top of my priority is my roommate, JY. I seriously care too much for his happiness that I am willing to sacrifice my own joy to see him happy. So I am resolved to helping him get a girlfriend No pun intended. If I don’t do it, I will not become a fucking rich and wealthy lawyer in the future. (*if u reading this, which I highly doubt, I just want u to know I seriously mean it…)

Speaking of which, I am now tossing up my chances of getting into NUS law. I am seriously planning some back up plans if I am sick and tired of Sydney law. I am seriously depressed in law school here, I know it will get better with torts and contracts and the other law subjects, but I am really sinking into so much self loathe and anger whilst studying foundations. This is really ridiculous but true. Foundations have indeed changed my perception of law. If I do get a transfer back to NUS, I will drop my double degree and opt to do a single law degree and obviously get exemption for foundations back home. I don’t want to repeat my suffering again.

Anzac day such a waste of my time.

Ah beng love Ah beng....

Ah beng meets Ah beng, Ah beng likes Ah beng, Ah beng have sex with Ah beng, Ah beng loves Ah beng…

No frigging way, yes horrors of all horrors. I borrowed this link from Eugene’s blog.

Actually in Sydney, it’s seriously no big deal. Nobody cares because we value freedom of expressions and we are tolerant of such acts. However back home, its like super big news. It’s of such interest; the elections have currently taken a backseat. Honestly, leave these guys alone. You shouldn’t feed on their publicity sham, those Attention seeking media whores.

It’s not a crime to be homosexual and publicly declare your love for one another, but please do remember that your actions will have an impact on the people around you like your loved ones and etc. It’s not all about you living your own life. That’s just plain selfishness. They are not sparing a though for the pain and embarrassment their family members are going through now. Be a homosexual at your own time and privacy.

Oh well.

life is unfair and dont you dare deny it!

Darn. NUS Law has send me another letter asking me to go sit for an interview and written test and by now I am getting pretty sick playing this hide and seek game with the law faculty. I can still remember the horrific experience with our dear Ms Leong last year and my disappointment and anguish about not making the cut to law and bitching and whining to every person within close proximity on how much I despise the faculty, but the honest truth was that I truly did gave a shit that my heart really desired only 1 thing and that is to get into NUS. Fast forward 1 year later, I am now doing a double degree in Law and Accountancy in the University of Sydney. I can only describe my situation as messy and complex because I have grown to love and admire and respect the law faculty here and the fact that Sydney University Law faculty is indeed the premier law school in Australia makes me even more privileged and honored to be studying with the top brains of NSW and of the state. The workload I am facing is equally impressive. I have never been so stressed struggling to keep up with my entire work load and I am barely keeping my head afloat in such intense and keen competition. Being with the elites do raise your standard, if you even have 1 to begin with. I hate being with very best. It makes me feel so small and insignificant. Maybe my long lost dream of majoring in ancient art and history aint that bad afterall. I need to have my creativity back again. I am so trapped in this whole academic rat race right now. Transferring back obviously wont solve my problem but at least it doesn’t seem that bad of an option since I am already suffering so much here? I guess doing a single law degree back home would be so much easier compared to the double degree I am undertaking now. I really don’t know what I should do. Perhaps I shouldn’t even do law. My parents were right, I should have just do mass communications @ NTU and be some gossip columnist which by the way I am very good at. I need some psycho analysis all over again…

law school is a bitch!@#$%

U know how sometimes we dream and hope for something to happen in our lives and we get extremely upbeat and excited about our plans, but when our dreams actually come true, we are not remotely satisfied and start to realize that this plan might not be working all that well. I am on the verge of tearing out my law professor’s hair and complete his balding cycle and telling him to shut the f!@@ up cause I really don’t care. Sometimes law discussion can be real pains in the ass where we start to discuss little insignificant things that everyone knows we can’t change, so why even discuss it in the first place? I mean we can talk and debate all we want, but isn’t that pointless. I am a very practical persona I need to know that the stuff I learn is applicable and useful to me. I mean seriously I don’t fucking care about MABO and aboriginal people in Australia. Yep all these things about land rights and stuff its all false pretense if the crown can still take back the land for its own purpose. But that’s a whole legal issue altogether. Law school can be such a bitch. I am currently going on a spiral to the bottom where I may fall back into relapse for depression. I see all the signs and symptoms but how much different would my life be if I would have chosen the other route? Honestly, I don’t wish to know because I can not go back in time to turn back the time clock, so all I can do now is just be content and study hard to do myself some justice of the extremely boring time spent in the army. I must and I will succeed no matter how tough it will be, because I don’t take failures and besides I have wasted too much time in self destruction in the army.