law school is a bitch!@#$%

U know how sometimes we dream and hope for something to happen in our lives and we get extremely upbeat and excited about our plans, but when our dreams actually come true, we are not remotely satisfied and start to realize that this plan might not be working all that well. I am on the verge of tearing out my law professor’s hair and complete his balding cycle and telling him to shut the f!@@ up cause I really don’t care. Sometimes law discussion can be real pains in the ass where we start to discuss little insignificant things that everyone knows we can’t change, so why even discuss it in the first place? I mean we can talk and debate all we want, but isn’t that pointless. I am a very practical persona I need to know that the stuff I learn is applicable and useful to me. I mean seriously I don’t fucking care about MABO and aboriginal people in Australia. Yep all these things about land rights and stuff its all false pretense if the crown can still take back the land for its own purpose. But that’s a whole legal issue altogether. Law school can be such a bitch. I am currently going on a spiral to the bottom where I may fall back into relapse for depression. I see all the signs and symptoms but how much different would my life be if I would have chosen the other route? Honestly, I don’t wish to know because I can not go back in time to turn back the time clock, so all I can do now is just be content and study hard to do myself some justice of the extremely boring time spent in the army. I must and I will succeed no matter how tough it will be, because I don’t take failures and besides I have wasted too much time in self destruction in the army.