The cell celebrated my birthday yesterday and I am kinda touched. I mean honestly, I hate being reminded that I am a year older in fact I’m dreading my next birthday, it’s a constant reminder that I am aging rapidly and I wish I could turn back my biological clock and be 12 again. Oh the wonderful feeling to be young. But I was really shocked when 1 of my cell mates actually revealed a word to nat yesterday; I mean it was something extraordinary. I knew it was a word from God because I am one of the privileged few that know Nat’s plans and I was really happy that the encouragement came at such good timing. I know this may sound silly but as that sister spoke, I actually felt the impact of the words. It was so clear and definite, and its a sure indicator it was from the Lord. The Lord is indeed please with you, Nat.

This led me to start thinking. What do I want to achieve in my connect group? I mean the purpose must be established so that we can work towards it. And after much thinking, I realised that I want to be a blessing to others; I want to be able to receive word from God so that I can uplift my brothers and sisters too. I am praying to God to start by transforming my life first because how can God use me when my life is still in a mess? I woke up in tears this morning partially because I am really starting to feel the stress of university but I really felt the Holy Spirit telling me to come back to God again.

I have drifted away from God like for a couple of weeks now but God is always calling out to me to return. Last week, the same thing happen to me when I suddenly for no apparent reason just broke down and cried, it was very unexpected. It just happened. I am really starting to be stretched but I know that it’s in this period of trials and testing that tests my spiritual growth and foundations in God. I can fail the world but I cannot fail God, without him im done….

Have to study, going to meet nat and ying later….