forget and move on...

Why am I feeling so lousy? The interview went horribly. As usual, I tripped over my words, dug my own grave when I opened a can of worms and talked about ‘freedom of speech’ and the fact is that Australia values freedom of speech more than Singapore and tripped over again when I said that Singapore should have more freedom of speech and admitted half way through the interview that Australia freedom of speech is a false ‘pretense’ and back to square 1, Singapore is no different from Australia. The feeling is shooting yourself with a bullet, which ricochet off you and come at you again, and again and again. Why do ‘they’ have to be so mean? What’s up with them hounding on the fact that I was rejected by NUS last year? Does it add to their satisfaction if they hear it from my mouth? Why can’t they just ask me easy questions like how’s life in Australia? How’s the campus culture over there? Why can’t they just ask me about my hobbies? I thought they would make my life easier because of the fact that I am already a law student and not a freakish amateur who can’t tell the difference between obiter dicta and ratio decedendi. They cut me off after 10 minutes and said that have someone else waiting outside and there go my f!@#$ing chance. All the stuff I prepared never came to past. I wanted to talk abt the federal system in Australia, I wanted to talk about separation of power, I wanted to talk about Australia’s stance on the iraq war, I wanted to talk about the constitutional monarchy, all I did was to talk about ‘freedom of speech’ which is so controversial, I shouldn’t have mentioned it at all. But 1 thing he did mentioned was that Sydney is indeed a reputable law school and I think I will claim that and just carry on living my life. This is like an exact same thing that happened to me, except that my I felt so much more confident the last time round. Still remembering the fact that they shot me down right at the start of the interview, they obviously knew that I was rejected my NUS law last year and they HAD to just bring it back and rubbed it in my face. I had a better time at the essay bullshitting about mens reas and actus reas and the whole thing about ‘reasonable man’ test and the subjective notion of intent. I was just babbling everything I knew because I really can’t be bothered anymore. I think I better start studying for my mid terms ….