Life is getting better!
I just tuned in to Oprah and my spirit was touched. “God has greater things in store for you, if you just believe…” The topic for the day was about courage. I guess the story that spoke to me was about the guy who has a speech therapy problem, and he was ostracized by society and shunned by his mates. However he went on to fulfil his dream to become a teacher who inspires others. Despite numerous rejections he strived on to become the teacher he always wanted and to be an inspiration to many others in the world. And he went on to become teacher of the year for his efforts. I am tired of living my life the way it is now, I really am. Seeing stories of others who overcame so much difficulties and having the courage and faith to live life to the fullest is such an inspiration.
People always ask me what do I wan to be when I grow up? I never really have no answer because I definitely don’t want to be rich and famous, status doesn’t make me a fulfilled person neither being all powerful and stuff will ever make me happy. I am really a very simple guy who only desires to be happy in life. Sometimes I tell myself, I don’t care whether my parents give me an allowance or anything, I really just want them to be with me and spend quality time with me. I grew up in a very lonely home where my parents were not there for me often, but I never ever blamed them because I know they did what they have to do to make this family a better place to live in. But sometimes I just want them to know that what I really want is to be with them. When I was growing up, I was a loner and isolated by everyone else and that made me even lonelier than before, turning to all the wrong things and when I look back I realised that I was searching for all the wrong things to fill this void. I used to think that I was the most unlucky person in this whole world, but I fail to see the numerous other people who are having a far worse life than me.
I have always had a self esteem issue. I always felt that I was not as good as so and so and I always felt that I was ugly and stupid and stuff like that. But over the years I have grown to realise that sometimes it’s really not what is on the exterior but what’s on the inside that matters. Its better to be humble rather than an arrogant bitch because God blesses the humble and opposes the proud. I want to wake up every morning feeling happy and at peace with God, I am tired of waking up and not having a clue what I am going to do. I am tired, I know that I am not the best human on earth but at least if I try, there’s still a 99 percent chance I will recover rather than not trying. I am currently struggling with some addictions with my past and etc, but I AM NOT GIVING UP ! cause I am worth much more than I can ever imagine and God has so much in store if only I learn to tap on his blessings. When there’s hope there’s a will!
Its time to pick up the sword and start the battle again.
People always ask me what do I wan to be when I grow up? I never really have no answer because I definitely don’t want to be rich and famous, status doesn’t make me a fulfilled person neither being all powerful and stuff will ever make me happy. I am really a very simple guy who only desires to be happy in life. Sometimes I tell myself, I don’t care whether my parents give me an allowance or anything, I really just want them to be with me and spend quality time with me. I grew up in a very lonely home where my parents were not there for me often, but I never ever blamed them because I know they did what they have to do to make this family a better place to live in. But sometimes I just want them to know that what I really want is to be with them. When I was growing up, I was a loner and isolated by everyone else and that made me even lonelier than before, turning to all the wrong things and when I look back I realised that I was searching for all the wrong things to fill this void. I used to think that I was the most unlucky person in this whole world, but I fail to see the numerous other people who are having a far worse life than me.
I have always had a self esteem issue. I always felt that I was not as good as so and so and I always felt that I was ugly and stupid and stuff like that. But over the years I have grown to realise that sometimes it’s really not what is on the exterior but what’s on the inside that matters. Its better to be humble rather than an arrogant bitch because God blesses the humble and opposes the proud. I want to wake up every morning feeling happy and at peace with God, I am tired of waking up and not having a clue what I am going to do. I am tired, I know that I am not the best human on earth but at least if I try, there’s still a 99 percent chance I will recover rather than not trying. I am currently struggling with some addictions with my past and etc, but I AM NOT GIVING UP ! cause I am worth much more than I can ever imagine and God has so much in store if only I learn to tap on his blessings. When there’s hope there’s a will!
Its time to pick up the sword and start the battle again.
posted by theflyisneverdead at 10/02/2006 07:36:00 PM
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