night of my life

The lowest point in my year was being backstabbed by a close friend and that hurt me a lot. Trusting someone with a secret is a lifetime decision and one have to think carefully before committing to this decision. Sometimes our secrets will drive; people away but it sort of acts as a litmus test to tell who are genuine and who are not. The world is full of hypocritical people but I have learnt to not let my emotions overcome me. Every lesson learnt will build and mould me and I’m sort of glad to have undergone this fiasco. This episode will go a long way in teaching me to be street smart and to handle people wisely. I don’t hate that person who did that to me, he probably had his reasons for doing so which even if I cant comprehend is still a reason and I have learnt to forgive and forgetting may not be that easy but I will not let this matter bother me cause 2007 has way too much things for me to achieve.

Another low point was falling into depression when I failed Man A as I had a very high expectation of myself and I couldn’t accept failure. The depression snowballed and led to many other problems which include substance abuse and other sort of wrong “vaccination” to ease the pain. I have never been more honest about my life but I don’t want to hide anymore because I want to be clean and transparent with my life. There are hurting people out there who are in a similar situation as me and I want them to know that all is not lost. For every lousy moment in my life, I use a smile to cover it. For failures and setbacks are bound to come our way, only that mine happen in the earlier stages of my life which I guess has a learning point to this. The very same person who backstabbed me provided a listening ear to me whenever I felt low and depressed. Isn’t it ironic that the very person who cares the most can hurt us the most also?

I want to set out to make a statement and that is always believe in yourself because God has far way too much for us to achieve ONLY if we believe and I have been blessed with 2 very great internships this summer and I managed to pass all my modules this semester. Phew! I am driven and motivated for 2007 as I am meant for great things for God is my master and his ways are always higher than my ways. My aim for 2007 is to get better grades and a law internship in Sydney. I believe God in bigger things because without faith we are able to achieve nothing.